What do you do when you discover one morning that you’re in a huge unknown? The reality dawns that at fifty four you own nothing, have no family of your own, your past business projects never succeeded, you’re bankrupt and the work you had recently embarked upon is not where your heart wants to be and has dropped you in to this ‘unknown’ unceremoniously? And to round it off there are no savings or financial resources of any kind…

On top of that, you’ve just completed an eight month transformational training where you’ve learned that focusing on money and how to survive is keeping you entrenched in your identity/ego and not the way to live in your greatness……

I had two choices when I woke up to that on 9th January this year – I could either go the standard route of finding an income source and hold two fingers up to the intuitive training I’d just completed or I could let go of all my security blankets and structures and keep heading deep in to the wilderness of this vast unknown and see if this stuff really works.

I chose the unknown.

I chatted with my intuition which told me to make this a visible journey and to create a video blog on you tube. What???????

It’s all very well knowing you’re likely to fuck up but to do this publicly is another matter…..

It was at this point I realised how clever I’ve been at playing games and pretending I’m living the dream, convincing myself more than anyone else. I received an actual shock to my system when I also understood that my motivation to create projects which help humanity were all driven by a need to feel significant. So I dropped that too. If I’m to live in my greatness then I must choose what I love, not what I think I need.

I chose to commit to following my hearts intuitive counsel, the way I’d been taught over the last eight months, and to authentically share my journey with whoever is drawn to watch. What I in my greatness loves is frequently very different to what me in my identity loves – and let’s not get them confused. My identity would have me curled up in bed with a good book and chocolate. My greatness has other plans.

My identity is desperate to know how I’m going to survive, how I’m going to create money to eat, pay bills etc, but my greatness is firm with me not to resolve the tension. It’s when we hang with that tension that magic can happen.

What I’ve discovered over the last three weeks is that my intuition is guiding me to spend more of my days doing the things I’ve said I’d love to do when I have more time and money. Walk in nature, explore my creativity, write, create, imagine…..

The strangest thing of all is that thirty years ago I wanted to follow in the footsteps of all those courageous people who wrote books about how they upped sticks and followed their hearts, but I never had the guts. I was always too concerned about how I’d survive and how I could even access my intuition. And yet this is the very unknown I’ve been dropped in to….erm, er, how did I get here? My intuition hasn’t told me to travel yet so maybe it’s more of an inner journey…but who knows….

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